Happy

im sinply happy for this few days i also dont know y=)...every single time im not in the mood the image of yours will jus appear in front of me and there i started to smile by myself...dear...today i sit in the class and i was very boring sitting down listening to my sej teacher u know wat i do so that i wont feel sleepy?hahaha i did a stupid thing...guess wat...i start thinking wat my wen dee told me this morning...and i start smiling all myself there and frenz sitting beside me she asked me wat happen and i dont even know how to answer her question...hahahaha...now i think back i start t laugh at myself wat a stupid thing i did in my life...it it was really happy and the most impotant is it actually let me dont feel sleepy after thinking this thing...thanks to my beloved dear...XD thanks for appearing in my mind..hahaha...i might not be the perfect one for u...but i hope i will be the best one for u..watever u told my frenz i will remember and i hope u will do it...

Wonderful Life Im Having

my life?
my life is now wonderful and meaningful...
my life is now fulfill with all kind happiness,joy,care and the love of the one im loving now...
y?y suddenly my life became so wonderful?hahaha i also dont know...im wondering y the after i came back from the camp i can really be that happy...maybe i learn hw to carry up a thing and hw to put it down in a way that it wont hurt myself but it might hurt someone else..i know im selfish...but im sori to say that i wan the best thing for myself...i have already wasted my life for dont hw many years so i dont wan continue wasting it...i know i have change alot...but i love the life that im having nw although i have already lose some of my frenzs that i use to share my secret with...but i promise i will get them back after i success everything in my life..it might take few years but doesnt matter cuz i believe that if the is yours no matter hw u ignore also it is still yours...same goes to my frenz if they are the true frenz of mine no matter hw also one day we will be sitting rite together and start sharing our sadness as well as happiness...thanks alot for u guys support for all this while...XD

FRIENDS!!!

where are all my friends?they are no longer there for me when i need them...the day after i argue with albee...all of them no longer be with me...no longer there for me..it really hurt me!it realli hurt...i realli hope that we will once again be like hw we use to be last time...but i know it is impossible...many of u might think that i have change..YES!i have change because i found out that last the ean ean is not good enough...she can be better than ever now...she wanted to change her life into a better wan...but she dont wan to leave her friends...she wanted to share everything with u all but too bad there is non of u be there for her when she wanted to share her secret with u all...i think the problem she having nw no one knows about it...to be honest...i realli enjoy the life i have nw...my life is about to be perfect d but there is something missing...im missing my friends the group of frenz that i use to smile,joke,laugh and share my life with them...where are they?if they wan me to be the one i use to be last time i can oni say sori...i dislike last time de me...

Fun Camp!!!

just came back from pangkor=)i enjoy my life there...is really great and awesome to meet everyone of u there...u guys are relly nice and fun..the camp there was fun but the food there suck!realli suck...4days 3night there i eat not more then 4meals=(come back get thinner d...not satisfied!ya...let talk bout my group...im from group 2(glory diamond)...the motto for our group is excceding limit...and the cheer of our group is(sorak sorak sorak glory diamond,glory,glory,diamond,diamond, glory,diamond,exceeding limit!)hooray=)our group won simulasi mesyuarat,kekerapan and best overall...see how awesome our team are...hahaha...thank you...
thank you for goverment giving us this opportunity...thank you skul for submitted my name...if skul dint submit my name i think i wont have this opportunity to went to this camp=)
THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

LOVE ALL OF U!MUAKX MUAKX!!!!

Am i doing the rite choice???

i dont know the choice that im doing rite now is correct or not...but one thing that i can be sure that is im much more happier rite now compare to last time..it is really hard for me to make this decision...i choose to leave u because i really i dont know wat can i do...i need u at the same time i also need her...so im sorry!i know is not fair to u but i really dont know wat to do...my tears keep dropping every single night before i sleep...no one know...and i think and think i cannot let thing continue like this so end up i choose to leave u and give myself sometime...but after facing all this thing i learn lot lot of thing...the life i have now is much more happier because i dont have to suffer and struggle like hell every night...thank you for ur care,thanks for ur care,thanks for everything!thank you!

I Really Dont Know Wat To Do

i dont know wat can i do to help u(beatrice)...u are not the beatrice that i know..this is not u. the beat i know is she know how to think very well...every single thing she do she will think wisely before she done it...i really very sad when lillian told me that ur mum told her that u 3days dint go home...i dont know wat to do...i felt so disappoint with u...at the same time i feel like helping u but i dont know at to do to help u...do u know that u actully disappoint ur mum and dad?u are the oni daughter to them u know or not?we as ur frenz we have already try our very best to help u d but u dont wab to help urself...i know u change is bcuz of ur ex i know...so from the day that u told me u are with that time i knew that u gonna change but i tak sangka u can change till like who u are rite now...do u think is worth it?come on la think for ur future la...i dont know wat to do...i really dont know...i have already advise u i have already scold u but u still dont even bother to listen to my advise..i can granty u that u gonna regret in ur future!BEAT wake up d...come back to skul pls...we promise u we will help u whenever u need us

STUPID!

Today during school time i  was quit ok...but when it come to reccess time im not really ok d....i dont  know wat happen to myself also actully maybe too pressure or wat i dont know...
untill kk time i really very angry with all the stupid maybe in my club...ppl use heart to teach them something but they are like dont care la...as long as i come and secretary take my attedance then can d...
i really HATE this kind club member...ok la...if u really dont like it then STOP joining this club...if u really do so maybe i will be more happy cuz i dont have to scold u for not doing this and that...u though being a president very nice ah har?
today was busy training for demonstration for sport day and sport day is juz rite after today...cant u all give cooperation ah?sansei is not here with us...i have already try my best to lead u all d but u all dont know how to show respect to all ur senior..not oni senior u all also doesnt know how to respect TEACHERS...when Mr.Lim  and Pn Tan are talking u all are talking too...u all though wat... the teacher talking rubbish ah?please la show RESPECT to ur teachers and ur senior la...Pn.Tan have been our teacher's advisor for so long i've NEVER see before she shout at ppl like how she shouted just now...please la show respect to the ppl that show respect to u all...if u wan ppl to respect u, u must learn how to respect ppl first...i show my respect to u all but end up wat u all did to me? i were talking infront and u all were talking behind i tell myself no to scold u all but end up i cant take it anymore i blah everything out infront of everyone...i really very disappoint with u all....i gave u all so many changes but u all dont know how to appreciate it... if u really dont like joining this club u go and tell Ms leong pls dont waste ur time and go there and sit down and end up u learn nothing consequenses u will regret in ur future

Y No One Like You?

haiz...no one like u...how? should i keep u with me or give it someone that i should give?
i dont know how?can anyone tell me?
y no one like u? y im the oni one like u, im the oni one who said u look nice altough ur dark
haiz...
i dont know wat to do la..
HELP pls...can anyone of u tell me wat to do?
i realli dont know wat to do...
u actually look nice wat...haiz
but no one like u,no one say that u are nice except for me
it really hurt me...
haiz...i dont know la...
i think i should juz keep u with me

SAD!!!

i really dont know wat to do to help my frenz
she get hurt
her stupid bf told her that he cant take care her
so they have to break
wat the stupid reason
me and shao lin really dont know wat to do to help her
to cheer her up
her bf really hurt her deep inside
i wish that there is no any other of my frenz gonna face all this again
cuz everytime they face all this problem
i dont know wat to do to help them and cheer them up
i understand their feeling
cuz i face all this before
it is really hurt
haiz...
y is life so complicated?
y cant life be much more easier?
really dont understand

Awesome+Fun

14.3.2010-16.3.2010
having cf camp at batu feringgi
it was very tired after the 3days 2night camp
but i really enjoy this camp
however wanna thamks to my teacher adviser pn.lee
cuz she gave us this chance to go to gp this camp
i really learn alot from this camp
i hope i can use it in my daily life...
we played many games
the most scary part is stage 1
we played this game during at night..
i went into the hall that is really dark and i were blind folded..
i cant see anything
i were guided by kai yun
she is the one who the me hich direction should i walk
we can make any noise
once we make noise we have to restart everything
but at the end we manage to search 7item in a very short time=)
it was really fun...
i hope and i wish i will have a chance to go this camp again...
it was really fun
i really enjoy it XD

Exam!!!

10mac2010(wednesday)
lol...
today exam...
one night b4 exam i dint sleep well
i very sad...
i did mistake for my acc
2 mistake u know?
i lose 6 marks d...haiz
cant get 100marks d=(
i wan full marks
i dont wan 90something...
moral i memories so hard at last 
my frenzs they all told me that dont have to memories all=(
moral paper damn hard
i tak tau apa yang dia mau...
all i ting tong tiang oni...
haiz...
first time i ting tong tiang my moral paper...
how?
i wan my acc and moral to get "A"
do u think i can get it wat i wan?
i really regret that i dint even bother to look at my moral latihan
how to write essay...
how? how? how?
2morrow got math...
my math sure fail d wan
cuz i dont know wat the teacher teaching...
she is like talking to the blackboard by herself...
haiz...
i hope...i really hope i can score"A"for my acc and moral...
that is all i wan for this 2 subject

Tired=(

haiz...realli veri tired
being a president of karate club
is really tired...
all the member suck
doesnt know how to respect ppl
they doesnt know a single manner also
even to teacher
they also dont know how to respect...
haiz
really speechless
today i got scolded from my sansei
he said y is this clubing not active
the time he ask me
i dont know wat to answer him
and now
he ask me to do something to build up the club...
he wan the member to attend all the trainig...
he ask me to do something toward the member those who dont wan to attend the training
i dont know wat to do
can anyone tell me wat to do?
haiz...
but being a president of this club
i really learn alot
i learn how to commit with ppl
i learn how to share thing with ppl
and the most important  is
i learn all my mistake that i have did
i get scold from teacher every single time
when there is less member attend the training
really sad...
i hope and i WANTED to build up this club before i ended  my form5 next year
i will do it!

Haizzz!!!!

my life?
i dont realli know wat my life is now
im confuse
i dont know wat i wan
sometime i think y my mum brought me to this world...
life is really difficult and the worst thing is
it make me suffer alot!!!
wat can i do to solve all this???
i dont know...
i know everything in life can be solve
but it hard to solve it without anyone supports and without anyone giving any advise...
it hard,it is really hard
my frenz said that im a sturbrn person...
but hw sturborm am i also i still need someone to support and cheer me up whenever im down...
im not as strong as wat u saw and said...im just acting in front of all of u that all...